*2Flower* To You

I've been feeling a bit

I've been feeling a bit depressed the last few days -- no really good reason, but a bunch of little things piled up together.

I planned on sleeping in this morning a little, but of course the phone would ring, and it would be a woman that I only hear from when she's calling to ask a favor. ~~sigh~~ Some people are so exasperating. Anyway, I said no, and I don't feel one bit sorry. She works in the genealogy library at church, and she's always trying to pass it off to others -- usually me. Sometimes I wish my last name started with a Z. If she can't or doesn't want to do it, then she should go and talk to someone and get released. It's completely voluntary, but she's always trying to volunteer everyone else. Anyway, I always go over there when it's my turn and do my job -- I even went over on Jason's birthday because I was on the schedule for that day. And half the time or more when she's supposed to be there there's a note on the door saying that she's sick or at the doctor. I'm already on the schedule to be there from 4:30 to 9:00 tonight. I don't want to spend my entire day over there. Some people.

And I wrote some more here, but then my connection was down, so I lost what I wrote. Anyway, gripe gripe mumble grumble gripe.

Basically, I went to see Dr. S. yesterday. And I'm not complaining about that. I just wish I didn't need to go see him, and I didn't need to be on medication. But depression is real, and it sucks. I tried ignoring it for way too long. Thankfully, I feel as though I'm getting closer all the time to being "normal." I'm not so overwhelmed all the time, and I don't have a disproportionate amount of fear or guilt about trivial stuff.