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1st Blogiversary & why I started blogging

I'm really happy to be posting very early on my real blogiversary. Maybe it's because I know that this is the only time of day I can have an uninterrupted thought or two. Any other moms out there know what I'm saying? I love my kids -- and now that they are relatively self-sufficient it's fairly easy being their mom. But it's crazy around here a lot of the time. And since I'm a SAHM and a homeschooling mom -- well, you can imagine. It would probably take me over half the day to come up with something to post later in the morning -- probably because I stayed up too late having time to myself.

Wait a sec -- they're still up pattering around... arrggghhh!

Anyway, I do have to give some credit to my (now 17 yo) daughter for starting me blogging. It was my way of coping with her leaving (yet again) that led me to start blogging. She had always been a very high-maintenance child, but the last few years she has been completely out of control because of us not letting her do whatever she wanted -- a very long story involving trips to the hospital for supposed overdoses -- to visits to counselors & psychiatrists -- to countless trips to Little Rock to visit her in youth treatment facilities -- to her staying in foster care (her idea, and we agreed because at least we would know where she was) -- to wondering where she was because she ran away from foster care and the youth facility. The last time she ran away she was gone for several months. She would call occasionally, but we had no idea where she was or how she was getting by. Finally she decided she wanted to come home. It was easy to forgive and forget the past because of our relief, and we took back in. Of course, it only lasted a month or so -- at least she was able to get her GED before she took off again. We knew where she was at that point, but we finally just gave up and let her have her way. She was pregnant -- and for me it was very, very difficult to go through that loss AGAIN when I wanted so badly to believe that she really did want to be home.

So it was that day that pushed me to decide to start blogging. At the time I thought blogs were really cool, but I didn't think *I* was that cool. ;) But writing a little and figuring out how to change my template, etc. -- taking tons of inane quizzes gave me a welcome diversion from the pain I felt. And I'm still not cool, but I've had a lot of fun and met a lot of wonderful people. I know I will probably keep blogging as long as there are blogs to be blogged. I may not say very many important things, but I enjoy myself very much. I started this blog for me --- only I lose focus on that fact sometimes in an effort to be a better blogger than I actually am. ;)

A lot of things have happened this year, and I think I want to make a list of them in my next post.

Oh, and I may have started blogging to cope with the problems with my daughter, but thankfully she is doing pretty well now. I think being a mom has really calmed her down and given her a purpose. Not that I'm really glad she's a mother at 17, but considering all we've been through, I'm glad to report that she's living nearby and doing quite well.

Posted by 2Flower at September 8, 2004 12:00 AM