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I Can

I have been doing better lately, and I'm not really sure why. I have struggled with depression for most of my life, but I have felt a change in the last few weeks coming on. I haven't even really been taking my medicine as consistently as I probably should, and I missed my last appointment with my psychiatrist (whom I really, really like, BTW). There have been the usual amounts of stress and annoyances.

For the last few days I have been more focused on organizing, de-cluttering and cleaning, and in the process I'm getting more exercise. I even got on the treadmill yesterday for a few minutes at a time. I have been enjoying listening to music and also finishing some crochet and knitting projects.

There is some subtle change somewhere that is making a difference. I sure wish I knew exactly what it was, because I almost look at it as a miracle. Whatever it is, I desperately want it to stay.

My attitude has been much more positive. I have been more aware of my thoughts, and I have been much more focused on "I can." I think it is true of almost everyone -- not just me -- but we each have a great deal of potential for accomplishing great things if we will believe in ourselves enough to try -- and keep trying. I think if we try hard enough to do something, we probably can in most cases. I'm not really sure where this is coming from, but I really like it. I just have to decide what I want to do the most and then do it. That is the hardest part. ;)